Journey to Myself

Journey to Myself

From the moment we are born, we are taught to strive for greatness. To reach for more. More education. More money. More. More. More. It's a constant theme in our lives from birth to death.

Lately I've struggled with feelings of inadequacy. Most of it due to where I currently am in my life versus where I thought I would be at this point. Five years ago, I had it all planned out. I knew what I wanted, when I wanted it, and how I would get it. It seemed so easy. Too easy.

Too bad life doesn't happen that way.

Been a Long Day by Rosi Golan on GroovesharkSo I had to step back, regroup, refocus and redirect.  And it has taken time.
A lot longer than I anticipated. But I've finally realized that I am content. I finally realize that I may not have the fabulous career I had envisioned, or the trendiest wardrobe, or even the quaint little townhouse in Greenwich Village.

I have none of these things. But what I do have is much more than all of those material possessions combined. I have a man who makes it his life's mission to ensure that I am happy and loves me not in spite of my shortcomings and flaws, but because of them. I have a little girl who, with one simple smile, has the ability to chase away all of my doubts and fears. Who gives me a reason to push a little bit harder every day.

They are enough. They are so much more than enough. They are my whole world. Simply by having them in my life, I feel I've accomplished more than I ever thought possible.

It's not that I no longer aspire to reach for more. To be something more. I do, but at the same time, my happiness is no longer dependent upon how successful I am.  I've taken that little voice that tells me that I've somehow failed out of the equation. And for the first time in a long time I finally feel complete.

Henry David Thoreau once said, "Not until we are lost do we begin to find ourselves." The first time I heard it, I didn't understand. What I didn't realize at the time is that I hadn't yet begun my journey. I hadn't given myself time to get lost. But finally, I understand. In all this searching for success and gratification, I finally found the one thing that matters the most. I found myself.

Photo cred) cafemayibuye

Reese

8 comments :

  1. It's easy to get caught up in focusing on what we don't have. I'm so happy for you that you've become content. I think we all go through little phases like that!

    I'm a new follower from the Monday Morning Bloglovin' Hop! :)

    Holly, www.curiousprinkles.com

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    1. Thank you! It's good to know I'm not alone. I'm now following you via bloglovin' as well :)

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  2. I understand where your coming from... I'm not where I thought I'd be in life either. I'm still struggling with finding happiness though.

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    1. Take it one day at a time and you'll find your happiness soon enough.

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  3. Wise words! You've figured out something lots of people older than you have never learned.

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    1. Thank you. I just hope I remember it when times get difficult. That's when it counts the most.

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  4. I know the exact feeling of inadequacy. But once you define success on your own terms, you will no longer feel the urgency to be "this" or do "that." Also, I've learned a lot about the power of prayer and patience while we wait for things to happen. Having a happy, loving family is a part of most people's idea of success and you're already a step ahead of most of us ;) Good luck with everything and you will become everything you have dreamed you'd be!

    Latoya "Elle"
    love-elle.com

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words, and yes, the power of prayer is still absolutely astounding to me sometimes.

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