A Little Note To My Readers

A Little Note To My Readers

One month. That's how long I've been away. And yet it feels as though I left well before my month long absence. It was a long time coming. And yet I kept barreling down the path, full-steam ahead, ignoring every warning sign and cautionary tale about "blogger burnout" that I had ever read.

It started around the same time that I began trying to turn my blog into a business. I spent so much time obsessing about pageviews and bounce rates that I started to lose myself. I started to lose my voice. And that is the kiss of death to a blogger.

Once upon a time my blog was my happy place. It was a reprieve. In a sense, it was my home. But then I started getting a barrage of emails. Every day. Someone wanting something more from me. "Write this post for us." "Be our ambassador." "Do this for us in exchange for exposure." All day, every day. And at first it was hard to turn it off. Then it was impossible to turn it off. 

Every moment of every day became a "bloggable" moment. Instead of living life for myself and my family, I was living it to try to capture that perfect picture to go with my post, to try to prove to more sponsors that I was somehow worthy of being named an ambassador for their company. It was to the point where my personal posts were nothing more than a strategic move to make sure that I maintained an acceptable ratio of personal posts to sponsored content. 

It's a frustrating thing when you realize that the companies your working with think of you as nothing more than a dotcom. When I think of all the family vacations I spent, tucked away in a corner, trying to make sure I had my post posted before a deadline, when I think of all the nights I fell asleep on the couch, because I had to crank out more content, when I think of all the times I could have spent with my daughter, but instead spent hunched over my computer, attempting to prove something to the blogging powers that be, I feel incredibly sad. Those are all moments that I will never get back. Those are moments that my daughter will never get back. 

When I think of all of that, I realize, it's not worth it. Not even a little bit. 

So what does that mean? It means that I have to slow down. It's time for me to be present in my life outside of the blogosphere. I still want to be here, but not because I have a deadline to meet or standards to uphold. This time I want to be here for me. 

Not to say that I'll never do another sponsored post, or partner with another company. I still intend to work, perhaps a bit more sparingly, but I will be a bit more particular about the companies I choose to work with. I want relationships. Genuine, true relationships.

My need for the business side of blogging arose out of a need to compete the others like me who had recently graduated with a degree in Communications. Luckily for me, I have an amazing job within the industry. One that is growing way more rapidly than anticipated. But in the best way possible. That pressure that I felt to profit off of my blog has since whittled away. Now, I can return to my roots. I hope you'll stick around for the ride.

Until then ,



13 comments :

  1. I feel you!!! I have ended up on a ton of lists recently and I am feeling so overwhelmed!!!!

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    1. Yes, it's exhausting. And frustrating how companies seem to think we're willing to work for free. I'm seriously considering changing my email address...

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  2. I love blogging, but I also love completely turning it off on vacation. We just spent a week in Malaysia and I didn't answer a single email. :) I think it does help that I still haven't found a money-making side of blogging that truly appeals to me...

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    1. Good for you! It's okay to let go and enjoy your life. Your readers will still be here when you get back :)

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  3. I've been wondering where you'd gone. I figured you were taking a break. Glad all is ok!

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    1. All is well :) Just making some changes!

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  4. Welcome back! I completely feel about working with companies truly want to build a relationship. Over these past few weeks, I've noticed more and more bloggers posting their frustrations about being just a # or being expected to work for exposure. I definitely think that some changes in the way brands interact with bloggers is overdue.

    But here's to living more in the moment and the continued success of your job!

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    1. Yes. Way overdue. I've decided that I'm done selling myself short because not only does it affect me negatively, but it allows companies to do the same to other bloggers. Maybe eventually they'll start to realize that we're more than a bulletin board to spread their messages on.

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    1. Don't be afraid to take a break. Better to go willingly than to just have a total meltdown and end up shutting down your blog completely :

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  6. Hi Reese, I understand your views and definitely how you feel. Every blogger has to find out what works best for them and their family and I can see that you have found just that. I encourage you to keep on going and do what you feel is the correct thing to do. As for me, being a Frugal blogger is hard and challenging and I love developing relationships with positive like minded bloggers, companies and supporters just like you. I enjoyed reading your post and look forward in us staying in touch. I have connected and followed on some of your other social media networks. You know right where to find me. ~ Quida

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  7. Wow..it's good that you realized this .. some ppl work so hard they end up losing a lot. The good thing is now you realized what the problem is so you can step back a bit and focus on family and the reason you started blogging in the first place!

    Miya
    Miyaloves.blogspot.com

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  8. You said exactly how I feel! I have been writing for a small digitally formatted site with the assurance that we have to "sell" our articles and others and write mostly what really interests people. I have been writing for them for free for three years now. They are selling ads. But I want to write about things that I want to write about. I don't have to make a living with my writing but it would be nice. So I write for them about once a month if the subject interests me. I write on my own blog site for fun and self expression. Nice meeting you the other day at Earth Fare.

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